Thoughts – May 28, 2016


Thank You Lord for Your Word! It is alive and active, and it causes us, Your children, to be alive and active when we hear it and read it! Amen!

Look at the connections in “Ponder” today:
* In today’s reading order

“Evil men do not understand justice, But those who seek the LORD understand all.

Better is the poor who walks in his integrity Than one perverse in his ways, though he be rich.

He who covers his sins will not prosper, But whoever confesses and forsakes them will have mercy.

He who trusts in his own heart is a fool, But whoever walks wisely will be delivered.
‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭28:5, 6, 13, 26

“Heal me, O LORD, and I shall be healed; Save me, and I shall be saved, For You are my praise.”
‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭17:14 (Sapphires by Jonathan Cahn)

“pray without ceasing, in everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. Do not quench the Spirit.”
‭‭I Thessalonians‬ ‭5:17-19 (Pocket Prayers by Max Lucado)

“Now no chastening seems to be joyful for the present, but painful; nevertheless, afterward it yields the peaceable fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it.”
‭‭Hebrews‬ ‭12:11 (Verse of the day – & KLOVE) (All Scriptures are NKJV unless otherwise noted)

Last night I was talking to Dad, and I was stopping – literally stopping on the sidewalk – as I walked to my “spot” where I’m staying. It’s almost like I had to stop to make sure I was really thinking what I thought, and say it clearly as I prayed, or questioned Him. Like I didn’t want there to be any possibility that He would misunderstand what I was saying. Look, I’m nobody in the grand scheme of things, but He called me for a purpose. So I hit these points when I consider how people treat me as a new creation in Christ. And it doesn’t add up. The math doesn’t work. Something is wrong with the equation. Maybe I’m reading into the Word. Or maybe not.

You see, I really do understand how I’ve hurt people. He reminded me again this morning. Some of the ways I’ve hurt people, they may never be able to forgive me. Or, they may forgive me, then find the recurring memory of the pain overwhelming. Then they have to let it go all over again, and again, and again. Kinda like how I feel now – the overwhelming pain of no relationship with many in my family. Yes, a lack of forgiveness is the key to individual health and well-being, especially as it relates to bitterness. Forgiveness doesn’t relieve me from responsibility, it frees them from the effects of bitterness.

The ripple effect of my behavior caused a lot of pain in people’s lives. Even people who I knew that I never hurt directly. They became victims because when they learned of my sin and crimes, it brought back memories of how they had been hurt In the past. So He had me praying for the victims of the ripple and the recurring memories. I feel more at peace about my current loss, but my faith is strained regarding the future reconciliation.

The old me would bolt and act-out in a self-destructive way, while hurting others in the process. That’s not an option now. But I still keep my eyes open for that rock that I can crawl under. Then the whole world can go by and I wouldn’t have to worry. Well, in theory anyway. I pray He allows me to experience wholeness with my family. However, I don’t want to be the cause of pain in anyone’s life ever again. Even if that means no relationship with them.

So, the solution today is in the verses. Seek the Lord, walk in integrity, confess and forsake my sins, walk wisely, pray to the Father without ceasing, and give thanks. Then endure this chastening and pursue the peaceable fruit of righteousness.

I pray:
“Lord, make me like a green olive tree in the Your house; I trust in the Your mercy forever and ever. I will praise You forever, Because You have done it; And in the presence of Your saints I will wait on Your name, for it is good.”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭52:8-9

Amen and Hallelujah!

Be well and have a blessed day! You are a blessing!
Bless somebody today!